Since You've Been Gone

She thought of her life that morning.
All the things that had led her to where she was now.

She realized how it felt to be with someone who cared for her feelings - no more nights of angry phone calls with grown men acting like children as they threw petty tantrums and put her down.
No more feeling under-appreciated or putting forth effort that was never matched.

There was some relief to reminiscing.
Sure, they always said the true way to show you didn't care was to forget about it and let it go, but she liked reveling in the feeling of change and satisfaction.
There was something to remembering how he had been and moving forward with that full knowledge on her side.

Sometimes moving on with the memory felt better than leaving it behind.

"I could say that I'll always be here for you,
But that would be a lie and quite a pointless thing to do,
I could says that I'll always have feelings for you
But I've got a life ahead of me, I'm only 22,

Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage,

You always made it clear that you hated my friends,
You made me feel so guilty when I was running around with them,
And everything was always about being cool,
And now I've come to realise there's nothing cool about you at all,

Since you've gone I've lost a chip on my shoulder,
Since you've gone I feel like I've gotten older,
And now you've gone it feels as if the whole wide world is my stage
And now you've gone it's like I've been let out of my cage"
-- "I Could Say," Lily Allen